Monday, December 14, 2009

Status.

Two Essay & One Final Down. One Essay, one presentation to go.

Twitter.

People keep telling me that if I post on my other blog like I have been I might as well have twitter. I don't believe in that. I just want to tell myself what is going on. I do not want everyone else to know or care about what is happening to me. Unless I'm dying of course. So here are two thoughts for today.

First, there was another fire drill in the Library today. The first day of finals. Lame.

Second, the girl that just sat across from me in the Library has a cup of coffee. IT REAKS! We go to BYU, are you really going to sit by me and smell like coffee. I want to puke.

Third, I now know much more about how Obama came to make his decision on sending more troops to Afghanistan. Now I have to write a paper on it. Good luck me.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Money

If I worked as much as I surfed the net, I'd be rich.

Monday, October 19, 2009

I know quitting is bad...

I want to quit my grad program. I know whining doesn't help anything, but I don't have time to finish my assignments. This is the first big assignment of the semester and I haven't started writing. It is due in about 18 hours. I am thinking about changing my topic completely. I always wish I could go back in time to finish everything. I just thought I had more important things to do. I wish the theories were more cut and dry. Each theory has been adapted a billion times and I don't know what is right or accepted in the field at any given moment.

Also, I've been using google scholar more and it is making me feel overloaded. Those Bing commercials really are beginning to persuade me. Then again... I have a hard time searching any database. Lame.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Graduate School is Hard

All that stuff I said earlier... life gets harder and harder until you can't take it any longer. I have so much to say, and I may start journaling it on here so I can keep track of what is happening in my life. I need to remember that I have this blog in order to rant about my adolescent mindset. Yeah.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Waiting!

I'm just waiting for EVERYTHING! I'm waiting for school to be over (undergrad), waiting to see if I can go to school for two more years (graduate), waiting to see if I can work after my 910 hours (I don't know if I want to), waiting to see if I should work all of my hours so I can be done. I'm waiting for church business and for new people to move in. I'm waiting for vacation and other fun things. I'm waiting to have feelings for most of my endeavors... but when you are just waiting what are you supposed to feel. I'm not calm or stressed. I'm nothing; AND I HATE NOTHING!

Why wait for everything? Am I supposed to make everything come to me? These things are not my decisions. I'm tired of waiting, and when the waiting is over... I'll probably be tired of business. That is why I have this blog. So I can talk about all of the things I am tired of!

Test Throw-up

Is so much reading necessary. My Cognitive Development teacher basically told us that to get a good grade on his tests you need to read the material and regurgitate it back to him. Make sure you put it in the exact order as the text, it is logical there. What is the point of writing if you are going to say the same thing. It is like I am going to eat something and then go to the bathroom and throw it up as soon as I can in order to not digest any of it. How is that even helping our brain? Just read and repeat, read and repeat. We may learn the material, but how are we ever supposed to enjoy it? Or ever want to learn about it again?

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Why would anyone ever think life is supposed to be easy?

It seems so funny to me that some people think life is easy. Why would life be easy? There would be no point in living if it was just fun and games. Of course there has to be trials and frustrations. Daily frustrations. There are also those times when you feel you are way to small for the task at hand. However, you are still supposed to complete it. How?

I think that with everything we do in life it is almost impossible to believe in a higher power. If there isn't we would be living this life for no reason. There is some reason we get to make decisions.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Stress

I'm sure there is a reason for stress. Actually I know there is a reason for stress. I just don't comprehend how every single important thing can happen in the time span of a few weeks. How can you prioritize if everything is just as important as the other? For example, I only have one class this semester due to the job I have. This class requires weekly journaling, some small assignments, and a big research paper. Doesn't seem too hard when you first look... the problem comes when the research paper assignments fall on the weeks that the Communications students get accepted into their program, I have 8 meetings in two days, then for the next two weeks my schedule has been booked with students. And not to mention the same week that I had to write my letter of intent for graduate school. Then in the same two weeks that I was busy at work I was supposed to be working on my essay and studying for the GRE. Then I had an OPAC Conference which was great, but all it did was emphasize the fact that no we don't have time for everything, get over it. How comforting. And of course I need to spend enough time with Kendall, making sure that we are still loving to be together. Nothing else gets done if I don't take the time to be with him, even if it is just when we are making dinner together. (I also like to squeeze in my American Idol time, just to have 1-2 hours where my brain can just be mush.) I also wish I could spend more time planning for my kiddies in Primary. Oh how I love to do something fun for them, and make their Sunday one to remember. I've been recently feeling this extra love for them. I don't know what I can do to show that to them. Then there are taxes, summer schedules, missing families in two states that are so far away, friends who think we dropped off the planet, etc. I do realize that this is the reason we have the Savior and the atonement to help us through these times. However, I still question why everything falls at the same time. The funny thing is... This is nothing. These are all things that will be gone in less than a month. My life is so good, and I really am happy. If your life is like this or much much more... You are not alone.